Big Girl Panties

They say its good to push yourself beyond your comfort zone. That's how you grow and become a better person. I'm really good at making plans, psyching myself up for the event/thing, and then chickening out at the last minute. I do it all the time.

Last year, I decided (and told everyone within ear shot) that I was going to cut all of my hair off (like Winona Ryder in Girl Interrupted) after my wedding. I went to my hair appointment ready to do it; sat down in the chair; and when my stylist asked me what I wanted . . . I broke down and said "just a trim." And to this day, I still have the same haircut I had when I got married. Its cute and all, but I'm still ashamed that I haven't been able to work up the balls to chop it all off. (On a side note, I've now decided that I want to grow it out again . . .)

So today I'm jumping in feet first into 2 things that I've been procrastinating about - leaving my dogs out of their crates all day and going to the gym. Yep, I'm putting on my big girl panties today y'all!

My dogs are crate trained and we've decided that today was the day to see if they were "grown up" enough to be left unsupervised and unrestrained in the house all day. Knowing them, they're curled up somewhere asleep. I closed off all the rooms of the house except the kitchen and the living room before I left; hid the trash can; turned the TV on to Animal Planet so they would have some noise; and left for work. I'm pretty sure this is what its going to feel like when I drop my kid off for the first day of school.

I've been wanting to go back to hot yoga for a while now, but unfortunately, its a bit cost prohibitive. Fortunately, my employer felt the need to put a gym in our building. I've had a membership to it for the past 8 months and have only set foot in it once (to sign up). So, I've decided that today is the day that I'm going to go down there and walk quickly on the elliptical machine after work. I'm doing it. I've told P to expect me home later than normal; I packed a bag of "work out clothes"; my iPod is loaded with up-beat tunes. I can do this.

So keep your fingers crossed that I will actually make it through the doors and won't run away with my tail between my legs. I wore my big girl panties today, right?!